The journey of partnership development while working full-time began taking a toll on me toward the end of January. I was feeling worn out. I began grumbling and said, “Lord, I want to give up. You’ve got to do this, I can’t anymore.”
In His loving-kindness, He said, “Rachel, don’t be like Esau and give up everything in a moment of exhaustion.” You see, Jacob and Esau were twins born of Rebecca and Isaac in the Bible. Because Esau was the first-born, he was promised greater position and inheritance than his brother Jacob. Here’s how the story of the two brothers went down:
|Once when Jacob was cooking some stew, Esau came in from the open country, famished. He said to Jacob, “Quick, let me have some of that red stew! I’m famished!” (That is why he was also called Edom.) |
Jacob replied, “First sell me your birthright.”“
Look, I am about to die,” Esau said. “What good is the birthright to me?”
But Jacob said, “Swear to me first.” So he swore an oath to him, selling his birthright to Jacob. Then Jacob gave Esau some bread and some lentil stew. He ate and drank, and then got up and left. So Esau despised his birthright.
Do you think that Esau was really going to die? I don’t find it likely, but we’ve all been there, exaggerating our circumstances when we’re exhausted or hungry. (Hanger anybody?) Esau didn’t give up a normal inheritance either. He gave up the blessing of his own bloodline bringing our Messiah on earth. Instead, Jacob’s bloodline brought “the root of Jesse” and “the descendent of David” — both prophecies about Jesus in the Old Testament!
With this all in mind, I prayed, “Lord, you’re right. I won’t give up all that you have for me and others in a moment of exhaustion.” Now that I just completed my first week at the House of Prayer, I couldn’t be happier to say that I persevered. Exhaustion is a sign we need rest, not a sign that we should give up, and God’s grace is sufficient for our weaknesses.