In my toil and indecision about when to start full-time ministry, I was worried about Rachel. Was Rachel making a perfectly good decision? If Rachel messes up, then she will suffer. If Rachel doesn’t do this or that, there will be consequences.
Surely the Lord calls us to pursue wisdom — He gave us an entire book devoted to it, but one morning the Lord convicted me. I was focusing too much on me and not enough on who God is. He is always faithful. He is a provider. God loves me. He has called me to ministry and will not forsake me. As I gazed upon the beauty of the Lord, my fears of starting ministry at the wrong time fully faded away and were replaced with excitement. I know He has given me the freedom to make a choice and He will provide as I seek Him. If you feel burdened with anxiety or hardship, I encourage you to look to Him. His yoke is easy and His burden is light.
“Do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.