In my toil and indecision about when to start full-time ministry, I was worried about Rachel. Was Rachel making a perfectly good decision? If Rachel messes up, then she will suffer. If Rachel doesn’t do this or that, there will be consequences.
Surely the Lord calls us to pursue wisdom — He gave us an entire book devoted to it, but one morning the Lord convicted me. I was focusing too much on me and not enough on who God is. He is always faithful. He is a provider. God loves me. He has called me to ministry and will not forsake me. As I gazed upon the beauty of the Lord, my fears of starting ministry at the wrong time fully faded away and were replaced with excitement. I know He has given me the freedom to make a choice and He will provide as I seek Him. If you feel burdened with anxiety or hardship, I encourage you to look to Him. His yoke is easy and His burden is light.
Luke 12:22-26
“Do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?”
Phillipians 4:8
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.